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Just got rejected from another job position. Cue my silent weeping.
I know it doesn't mean much and I shouldn't take it to heart, but getting hit with one rejection after another makes me feel like a clown. I'm honestly so sick of employers constantly saying they're hiring only for them to turn down everyone who applies with a shitty ai-generated response. Like, seriously? Honestly, I don't get it. I know it's nothing about me as an individual, but I'd at least like a chance.
I still have to sign up for this employment program my friend recommended me, but applications aren't open until tomorrow so until then I'll type and ruminate on these countless rejections. I know I'll probably have better luck scoring a position once I graduate, nobody takes highschoolers seriously after all, but I can't wait that long. 4 months till graduation might as well be 15 years in penitentiary. I just want independence (and cash) is that too much to ask for?
I'm just tired of always being stuck at home, ffs I don't even have much schoolwork to numb my brain with. I just want a job, driving lessons, and maybe even a nicer haircut. It's not like I want the world.
I just want to break out of this routine of school, home, sleep, school, home, sleep, school, home, sleep, I want to know that after graduation I'll be fine and won't feel like I'm falling behind in comparison to everyone else surrounding me. Why am I the only one in my group without a job? Am I just slow? Am I destined to stay in my room forever?
Now I'm just spiraling all over again. I just hope when I wake up tomorrow my hair will look somewhat better (I gave myself a shitty haircut at 11am a couple days ago), the employment program will overlook my faults, and just focus on my eagerness. I hope that tomorrow will be the last time I wonder if I'll amount to anything after these 4 months are up.
I know it doesn't mean much and I shouldn't take it to heart, but getting hit with one rejection after another makes me feel like a clown. I'm honestly so sick of employers constantly saying they're hiring only for them to turn down everyone who applies with a shitty ai-generated response. Like, seriously? Honestly, I don't get it. I know it's nothing about me as an individual, but I'd at least like a chance.
I still have to sign up for this employment program my friend recommended me, but applications aren't open until tomorrow so until then I'll type and ruminate on these countless rejections. I know I'll probably have better luck scoring a position once I graduate, nobody takes highschoolers seriously after all, but I can't wait that long. 4 months till graduation might as well be 15 years in penitentiary. I just want independence (and cash) is that too much to ask for?
I'm just tired of always being stuck at home, ffs I don't even have much schoolwork to numb my brain with. I just want a job, driving lessons, and maybe even a nicer haircut. It's not like I want the world.
I just want to break out of this routine of school, home, sleep, school, home, sleep, school, home, sleep, I want to know that after graduation I'll be fine and won't feel like I'm falling behind in comparison to everyone else surrounding me. Why am I the only one in my group without a job? Am I just slow? Am I destined to stay in my room forever?
Now I'm just spiraling all over again. I just hope when I wake up tomorrow my hair will look somewhat better (I gave myself a shitty haircut at 11am a couple days ago), the employment program will overlook my faults, and just focus on my eagerness. I hope that tomorrow will be the last time I wonder if I'll amount to anything after these 4 months are up.
